And the story continued...

Like I promised...here comes the details...

When she threw me the question, I did not immediately answer her...I took a deep breath and started thinking...I know that I could not scold her for asking that kind of question as she is no longer a small kid (even small kids nowadays insist you to answer their questions until the're satisfied with the answer)...I could also not force her to change her mind...the only thing I can do is...tell her the TRUTH...the consequences she might experience later in life...and my answer is :-

'*****, masa kecil2 dulu, seingat kak long, kak long tak pernah fikir nak cuba buat sesuatu yang boleh merosakkan reputasi diri & keluarga...yang kak long fikir, cuma nak dapat 4A for UPSR, 8A for PMR and aggregat below 10 untuk SPM then masuk U pastu boleh kerja elok2...I have a lot of friends who told me that they regretted all the mischieves they did long time ago...it's all about reputation...dulu, masa kat sekolah, diaorang selalu buat hal, tapi, bila dah mature, baru diaorang sedar yang perbuatan diaorang tu sebenarnya sangat2 memalukan...semua ni berlaku bila dia dah berfamili & anak pun dah besar...one day, dia hantar anak pergi sekolah, and she bumped into her old schoolmate, they chit chat a little bit as their children is in the same classroom...then they went back their own way...a few days later, anak dia balik sekolah menangis-nangis...she asked him why...dalam sedu-sedan, the son asked her..."mama, betul ke dulu masa kat sekolah, mama selalu buat jahat?"...masa tu, darah terasa naik ke kepalanya...where did he get the idea of asking that question?...the son asked again as he did not satisfy ..."betul ke mama selalu buli orang? betul ke mama isap rokok? mama pancitkan keta cikgu ke? jawablah ma..."...gelap dunianya seketika...airmata dah bergenang...then she open her mouth..."kenapa adik tanya macam tu?"..."kat sekolah, semua kawan-kawan kelas adik tak nak kawan dengan adik...Aman (bukan nama sebenar) cakap, mama dia bagitau jangan kawan dengan adik sangat, mama adik jahat masa kat sekolah dulu, isap rokok, ponteng sekolah, kawan dengan lelaki la...mama aman tak nak aman jadi jahat jugak sebab kawan dengan adik..kalau mama jahat, adik pun mesti jahat jugak...betul ke mama?"...hmm...what should you answer him?

itu hanyalah sebuah cerita...yang mungkin dialami oleh sesiapa saja di luar sana...moralnya, fikir dulu sebelum kita buat sesuatu...kesannya mungkin bukan serta-merta...mungkin juga bukan pada kita...kesannya mungkin akan mencalar hati dan jiwa seseorang yang kita sayang suatu hari nanti...walau macamana pun, kita semua tak pernah lari dari kekesalan...setiap dari kita pasti ada perkara yang kita sesalkan...sebab kita bukan maksum, yang tak pernah melakukan kesilapan...cuma, kita mampu mengawal keadaan...and as for my dear friend...she just sit in silence...maybe thinking...or maybe just ignoring the story I told her...I'll always pray for her goodness...