Wednesday, December 9, 2009

My Very 1st Entry...setelah beberapa lama register blog ni

Seriously, it has been a while after my last post in my previous blog...dulu rajin giler update blog (when I was working in a private company...caya x keje private blh relax?). Sekarang ni, bila dah 'terjerumus' dalam dunia berkeluarga, harus sangatlah takde masa. Tapi, memang rindu sangatlah nak menulis, lebih-lebih lagi bila teringatkan kata-kata seorang teman yang agak membuka mata. Katanya, tulisan kita inilah yang akan menjadi penghubung kepada anak-anak, teman-teman dan kaum keluarga yang bakal bertambah dari hari ke hari kelak apabila kita sudah pergi. Perjalanan hidup kita akan tercatat di sini, perasaan suka, duka, kecewa, gembira dan semua rasa yang ada.

Hmm...betul jugak kan statement tu? Kira ni macam diari tak rasmi la...hehehe

Sedar tak sedar, kita dah masuk tahun baru...cepat sangat masa berlalu kan? Rasanya baru je ambil SPM, rupa-rupanya sudah 10 tahun dunia persekolahan ditinggalkan...masih terbayang-bayang dok jalan dengan kawan-kawan pergi kelas, prep, took part dalam minggu bahasa, berjalan kat pasar malam depan maktab...haa...sebut pasal pasar malam ni, teringin sangat nak makan bihun sup special makcik kat situ, burger special (best giler burger ni, tebal, macam2 dia letak, siap letak bawang goreng, tu yang membangkitkan selera tu), nasi ekonomi, kuih-muih yang penuh satu meja panjang, kopok lekor...macam2 lagi la yang ada...hmm...but, I do wonder, do all the hawkers still there? I really hope that I could go back there & experience everything all over again...

Kadang2 memori ni macam flashback balik dalam ingatan...rindu sangat2...teringat perangai2 immature zaman2 sekolah dulu, bila fikir2 balik, malu sorang2...hehehe...tapi, zaman tu semua dah berlalu...cabaran membesar sebagai remaja sekarang rasanya lebih hebat berbanding dulu...seingat saya, dulu, aim saya dalam hidup, nak dapat UPSR 4A (zaman tu 4A paling banyak, xdak subjek sains), PMR 8A, SPM agregat bawah 10, then nak masuk U...to be frank, I never wanted to try something that will destroy my family & my own reputation...I've always thought 10-20 years ahead...what will be the impact of my behaviour to my family & my children later...I do have things that I regretted...but, I'll try my best not to repeat it again and not always thinking of it...

Once, a very dear 'friend' of mine (I'm considering her as my friend though she's blood related to me because I want her to know that there's no restriction between us if she wanted to express her feeling, you know, children nowadays love to talk to their friends more than their own family, because they think that a friend will understand her more than a family as family only wanted to see good things about other family members, so, when you did something bad, you'll only got scolded. I used to be that kind of family member before, but now, I know that kind of approach will no longer make any impact...now, i'm trying my best to become a better family member & think before I say something) was saying :-

F : Kenapa tak boleh smoke? Bukannya berdosa pun?

Hmm...what will you answer a teenage girl who has been secretly smoking since her tender teen age?

I'll tell you my answer in another post...till then...have a good day